So this will be the most depressing thing I will ever write.
Back in January somethings happened in which I partly refuse to talk about, which lead to my partner and I splitting up. Currently I cannot talk to them, even for a minute. All communication cut off.
End of January and beginning of February I unexpectedly had the biggest heart broken moment in my life. I lost something that I never knew about until it happened. Goodbye, sorry we could not meet.
February was alright. I found my footing again despite not having anyone except friends near me. I gained two best friends, that I do truly love like the others. G and I, those are close to their first initial of there names.
March... It was filled with fears, love, lust, depression and other things no one wants to know. My footing grew stronger and I ended up finding a new outlet, my love for dance. Corny but true, at least I found something I could always look forward too.
Everything with I was lovely and grew stronger and stronger together, as friends but partners. It was real and it felt like I could float once again, which was nice without having many people surround me.
As I carry on, April was just exciting and passionate. Yet I knew due to health and for my better safety somethings had to be done, so I eventually got them done. Currently recovering but I am better.
It's May now, and I cannot say to much. A new lovely boyfriend who will stay by my side regardless, even if I did not want it all. My life is getting better as I heal. I share this story with you so others can see life is a struggle. Everything is not there for you when you need it, things change, things come and go, somethings leave entirely. Don't hold the strings from the past, they wrap around you which does not help.
Anyone who read this, who needs an ear or wants to know more what I've been through. Please do message me. I am not the only one in the world who has depression or lost the most valuable things in life. There is people here, please do remember that.